In short, I was miserable and depressed ALL THE TIME!
About two and a half years back, my thoughts/character/attitude/outlook on life started to change drastically. I started to embrace the challenges in my life, even though I still do KPKB a bit, but I truly believe that behind every fuck things there is a lesson to be learnt. If I accept it and deal with, I will be able to find some means to prepare myself for more of the shits that await me.
I saw this somewhere and hell it is so goddamn true.
"For everything happens for a reason. In the end, it would all be okay... If it is not okay, it is not the end yet!"
And in my own words for the ending:
"In the end, it's not how good you are or how rich you might be... It's whose hands were those who had held you through."